The nights here are dreadful. Usually its
so hot in my concrete room that I lie sweating on top of the thin cotton sheet
tossing and turning till it becomes a crumpled damp rag that my feet get
tangled in and I am left on the mattress. The bed is enclosed in a mosquito net
that makes the space seem close and airless. I am always on call so the mobile
phone is nearby, but even in the daytime reception is poor and I have great
difficulty being understood and
understanding whats being said to me – at night I go outside in the dark and
wander about trying to get a better reception but not talk too loud and wake
the other ex-pats sleeping nearby. On every second or third night I am First on
call so have a small hand-held ICOM VHF
radio/walkie-talkie as well, but it seems to pick up interference from
something and intermittently make a noise that wakes me, thinking I am about to
receive a call for help from the Hospital, and I lie there waiting for it, and
when it doesn’t come I wonder if perhaps its malfunctioning and they are
desperately trying to call me and getting no response. I realize now, after a
few disturbed nights and phone calls to Maternity to check I was not needed,
that it’s a fault with the phone but when youre on call you sleep lightly, and
are easily disturbed. On a quiet night at 5 am the call from the Mosque wakes
me, but the most horrible thing at night are the packs of marauding dogs. We
see them when being driven into the hospital in the dead of night, the only
living things on the deserted filthy streets, packs of five to fifteen of them
hurrying into the darkness as we approach. At all hours of he night they can be
heard, sometimes a long way off and only faintly, but more often closer and
sometimes on the street a few meters away barking snarling fighting and howling
in number, a dreadful savage and chilling racket that erupts and then ceases
after a few minutes with yelping and squealing. We are under curfew so are not
allowed out of the compound except in a vehicle after dark, but that’s not what would stop me wondering the
streets – its those mangy mongrel dogs. So
sleep is never good.
A few nights ago, at 2am a call on the ICOM
woke me from my usual sweaty and twitchy sleep and suddenly even being awake
was a nightmare : “Please come quickly the peritonitis lady is very sick I
think she is having a heart attack, I think she is dying”
Oh my God I thought – this was the woman I
thought we had rescued from MOH and now she was dying. I dressed feeling sick
and hurried to find a driver to take me to the hospital, all the time just
feeling sick and overwhelmed and powerless.
On the interminable ride along the potholed
mud track that passes for a road I tried to imagine what on earth had happened
to her – she had been improving when I last saw her. Actually I already knew
what the problem was because I had encountered it already with other patients:
we have so few resources here its impossible to provide monitoring and care
anywhere near as complete as would happen back home, so effectively we are
“flying blind”, just guessing at whats going on inside her abdomen, her chest,
her lungs and heart, her blood chemistry. At home such a sick woman would have
been in a real Intensive Care, she would have had XRays and serial blood
testing and balancing of a multitude of
biochemical and electrolyte markers, continuous heart monitoring, hourly
measures of output and input, oxygen saturation, Blood Pressure and kidney
function, and of course the input of multiple experts in surgery, intensive
care, emergency medicine and nursing – all this and we would have had some idea
of what was going right and what was going wrong, what changes could be needed, what drugs should be changed
or added or stopped altogether, how safe it would be to get her to drink or eat,
whether or not her apparent improvement was masking sinister new developments.
But here we had no idea, we just had to rely on gut feeling, prior experience,
guess work, luck…and now it seemed we had guessed wrong.
Earlier that same day, flying by the seat of our pants we had
managed a complicated obstetric patient almost perfectly. She had come in
because of vomiting and she was complaining of
pain in the upper abdomen and was discovered to have extremely high
blood pressure (240/130 - for anyone not in the know, this is frighteningly
high). She was not in labour and it was
her first pregnancy. The baby was alive and she said she was “eight months” Her
urine was the colour of blackcurrant fruit juice indicating blood was being destroyed
in the circulation (hemolysis,) a very serious complication, but there was very
little urine being produced indicating potential kidney failure. A urine test
with a dipstick showed abnormally high amounts of protein in it. We guessed she
had a serious complication of preeclampsia called HELLP Syndrome but of the countless
blood tests we usually would order to confirm this, and repeat every few hours
to monitor her progress, and especially to check on her Platelet count, only
one was available : Haemoglobin! It was really high indicating her blood was
abnormally concentrated. We used all three types of blood pressure drug we have
available in Aweil to get her Blood Pressure down to something reasonable and
try to prevent a stroke, we gave her specific medication to prevent convulsions
which she was at extreme risk of developing, and to keep her kidneys going,
some fluid but I had to guess how much to give.
And then I had to decide how much time I
had – her condition was going to continue to get worse until the baby was born
– so one solution would be to immediately do a caesarean. Her platelet count
was unknown but was probably falling, making difficult, even life threatening
bleeding from surgery very likely, because Platelets are a vital component of
the system which stops bleeding – and we would struggle to get blood to give
her. Back home hardly anyone would have hesitated to do the caesarean – the
baby was still alive, she had not developed convulsions and her blood pressure
was under control – just – and her kidney function and platelet count were only
going to get worse – back home we could even give her platelets, but not here -
a caesarean could kill her, and the longer we waited the more likely that if we
did it, it would. We would be flying blind again.
On the other hand, with her Blood
pressure adequately controlled, and her
anticonvulsant medication and some fluids given, there was a small window of
opportunity that could allow us to try to get her labour started and the baby
delivered normally. Midwives have always believed that women with pre-eclampsia
have quick labours and as this baby was small, at eight months, perhaps this
young woman would prove the midwives tale true. We decided to try and gave her
some medicine to start the labour – and wonderfully, it worked well, her labour
established within a couple of hours and a couple of hours after that, to
everyones huge relief and delight the baby was born in perfect condition, small
but vigorous. From that moment on, the mother started to get better.
For that mum, our luck had held. But for
this poor woman at 2 am, it seemed it had run out. I felt cursed, frustrated,
angry, embarrassed and stupid : of course she would die, how on earth could
such a sick person not die when all you
can do is guess at whats really going on, when youre not an Intensive care
Specialist but a gynaecologist, when you have three drugs and two types of
fluid and no monitoring other than Blood Pressure and Temperature, when the
people trying to look after her have only ever had the most basic and
rudimentary training? What was her Potassium level? What was her Sodium level?
What was her kidney doing? What would an ECG tell us? A Chest XRay? What? What? What?…it was all “what?”
and the answers were all “I have no bloody idea so what am I doing here?”
The van stopped at the hospital gate and as
I headed in, my phone rang again. I just knew he was going to be ringing me
back to say “no need to come, shes dead”. And yes, just as I guessed “ theres
no need to come” he said – “but I am already here” I replied – and then he said
“ Its OK, Shes fine” She had just fainted!
That was a few nights ago and today she
walked from the hospital. I hadnt realized until she stood up from her hospital
bed what a tall and elegant and most beautiful woman she was, wonderful white
teeth shining from her smiling black face, braided hair , long arms and slender
hands and fingers that seemed unnaturally long, she walked from the ward
hesitantly but proudly tall, and didn’t look back.